Excited Anticipation

While preparing for our weekend it felt good to get back to my wifely duties feeling more of myself even if just lightly duties. I applied my nipple clamps and ironed Sirs clothes just like my submissive self. It not only felt good but right, something I have missed as a part of who I am. It’s time to get off the Pitty Potty and pull the Big Girl Panties on and accept the new life ahead of me. It will be difficult but I was never one to shy away from a bump in the road, so to speak.

And after much thought, i packed a few spanking implements, one new that I found at the bottom of a drawer that I must have forgotten about and still newly wrapped. I hope Sir is pleasantly surprised. I have butterflies in my belly with excited anticipation and only hope that I get a reddened butt by the time we return home.


I decided to surprise Sir tonight before our little retreat with a greet at the door on his return from His weekend tryst. It’s been a few months since i’ve been there with glass of wine in hand and a simple dinner prepared. I even managed to put some lipstick on and freshen up my hair. Unfortunately I couldn’t maneuver being on my knees but the look on his face as he entered was one of genuine surprise as he smiled and took the glass from my hand.

He was pleased I was up off the recliner, that i was actually trying although there was no need to accommodate him in any way. I assured him it was as much for me as i wanted for him, I need to be and feel me again, even if for a very short while. I need “our” normalcy, whatever that may be because life lately has really been sucky to say the least.

We enjoyed dinner and spoke, I asked him if he could please consider a “light” discipline, as it was our contracted Sunday Maintenance Night. He immediately refused, not wanting to hurt me in anyway. I explained I very much needed the tension release. After much thought and begging on my part, he agreed as long as it was lightly with hand and no more than 10 swats if I could handle it.

I was able to prop myself over the arm of the chair with the help of some pillows and received my “light” Maintenance, each hand swat hesitating between every “light” tap. My butt didn’t even get the slightest bit of a pink hue.

So, In all honestly I didn’t feel a thing and didn’t want to push my luck and relate my disappointment. I have thought of packing an implement in the suitcase this coming weekend and omitting “light” from any form of Maintenance while presenting my case, but at the same time I don’t want to be sneaky in doing so.






A bit of an absence

I’ve not logged on in months, i apologize, so many personal issues have erupted in our lives and finding the time to sit down to blog was the furthest thing from my mind.

One is health, nothing is life threatening, but in this case both are serious concerns. One is mine and another a family member, both requiring major surgeries and recoveries. We’ll persevere, we are strong, it’s just so damn draining not only physically but emotionally.

Another is Sir’s and my relationship, TTWD has also been put on the back burner for obvious reasons and it hurts me to not be available 24/7 in the capacity he is accustomed to and needs. He never complains, he still has his weekend tryst, it’s just a different life these days.

We are planning a quick weekend away for a few days before things get real hectic in our lives, I am hoping we reconnect even if for a few short days. I long for not only his touch, but a gentle swat on the ass wouldn’t hurt me either.

I hope to check in every now and then, i enjoy reading everyone’s blogs, it keeps things in my life real.


Stormy Night

I greeted Sir as usual and presented my mouth to his erect cock as I unzipped his pants. He thrust hard at first, needing my mouth as much as I needed, I craved to feel his swelling member on my tongue, in my throat and breath in his muskiness of the day. I missed him, this, his power over me.

He let me suckle him for a bit, me on my knees, presenting my nakedness to him as he sipped his Red wine standing in the doorway. He pulled me up by my hair, told me to prepare his dinner while he showered.

I set his place at the table, he ate as i knelt next to him, head bowed. He placed nipple clamps tightly on my breasts and tugged them intermittently. He placed a leash on my collar, after dinner led me on my knees out to the patio. It was raining hard, he sat in a lounge chair under the awning and had me sit at his feet, head bowed. I was in the rain, getting pelted, it was pouring. I wasn’t worried at this point at being seen by the neighbors, nobody was out in this weather and as hot as it was, air conditioners were running drowning out any sounds we may make.

He asked if i was prepared to serve my Master. Yes Sir, i responded. He yanked on my clamps, they tore off my nipples causing immediate pain, I winced. He instructed me to bend over the wooden picnic table, at this point we were both in the rain. He asked if I was ready, Yes Sir Please Administer My Maintenance.

The first hit I knew it was the paddle, 50 hard strikes thanking Sir in-between each one. I was drenched in sweat, tears, and rain. He pulled me up again by my hair, this time dripping wet, and forced my head between his legs, He humped my mouth hard, pounding my face, my makeup smeared all over me and his cock never letting go. He came furiously, grunting, relieving pent up sexual tension as his cellphone started beeping with emergency flash flood warnings, How appropriate for the moment!



Summer Days~Lost Submission

We are mid July, the days are going by fast. D/s has been on the back burner, the grandkids have been in and out these past two weeks, beach days, BBQ’s, and family.

I am totally exhausted by days end, but Sir has been very gracious giving me a reprieve, although I have been able to sneak into the bathroom in the early morning for Sirs morning blowjob and a bit of delicious protein for myself! I begged for my Maintenance this afternoon, lol, I NEED it, the last of the children went home today until next week. I crave my submission, servitude, and tight schedule. I sit here finally relaxing and catching up on my life in general. Sir said when he returns home tonight we will return to what we consider normal, His wine glass is waiting as am I.

Tomorrow is getting this chaotic home in order, it’s amazing what children can do in less than an hour to disrupt an organized household never-less a few weeks!

Being Happy

Saturday evening on our getaway weekend was not full of kink, but intimate lovemaking. It started out just a quiet evening, candles lit, bbq, wine, and talking. He said he was relieved I told him I was happy this morning, he said how much he loved me and how I fulfill him in a way no-one else could. He said if i told him I was unhappy, we could stop our D/s relationship if that was what I wanted and needed. I reassured him I am where I wanted to be and if he remembered correctly, I introduced this into our lives. We ended up cuddling, touching, and just reconnecting in a way we haven’t been lately, it was just romantic and nice.

I lay in his arms after our lovemaking and thought how amazed I am at the stamina Sir has, lets face it we’ve been together many years and we aren’t getting any younger. His sexual desires are that of a young man, it’s very rare he doesn’t have some kind of daily sexual activity with me, but he also is sexually active outside our marriage.

I wondered about this other woman, curious as he never speaks of their relationship. I have spoke to her on the phone, but other than that I have not had any interaction with her. His demeanor is changed these days, perhaps he has feelings for her. I didn’t want to bring it up on our weekend, but I would like to meet her if she agrees to it.

I fell asleep soon after snuggled in his arms.


Let the weekend begin

Sir is spending today, Saturday, and tonight with his GF. He told me this will give me the opportunity to catch up on my blogging since I have chose to neglect it for the last few weeks.

So onto our weekend, I woke up Saturday to the aroma of coffee perking the old fashioned way on the gas stovetop. It’s been awhile since we have enjoyed our coffee this way, we use the easy way, Keurig, at home. On the table sat a Black box with a Red bow, a gift for me! Sir thought it was appropriate to celebrate the renewal of our Agreement.

We sat on the porch sipping our coffee, me with my new collar, and he asked me if I was happy with how things are. I am, I have no argument or changes I would like to make nor do I want to delete any item, but I certainly wouldn’t mind additional Maintenance Spankings. Preferably daily would keep my behavior in check is my first thought, but Sir said that was too much for now, so we agreed to our regular Sunday and an additional on Wednesday. He said although I do tend to be bratty and forgetful at times, I am a good girl and he has no complaints in regard to my service to him and my sexual submission.

He thought though since I was not as focused on daily scheduled activity, perhaps if he installed cams temporarily throughout the majority of the rooms to our home, as a means to check on my progress and well being it would help. We have one in the bedroom for years, for security reasons but use it also as a play tool.  I told him I would consider it, at first I was a bit offended thinking he needed to more or less babysit me. After much discussion and thought that camera’s would be on me 24/7, it brings the exhibitionist out of me and I find myself getting turned on a little. I told him we could try it on a trial basis, if I felt uncomfortable in any way, he agreed we would remove them.

He smiled and said it would keep him turned on at work also seeing me strutting around naked all day. That thought got me going, I knelt next to him and lay my head on his thigh saying I could perform for him at any given time during the day and he could replay the video. He agreed that would be nice and he started to get erect. I continued with his morning BJ, afterwards we made a small breakfast and showered.

He decided he was going to go fishing in the lake at the end of the property. He also decided I was going to accompany him in a bit of bondage and thigh high fishnets, the fun was about to begin. The property is secluded so I didn’t really see an issue with it, but I brought a long sweater in the happenstance it was chilly at night, I thought if someone came along I would just wrap myself up in it. So off we went down to the lake, my pussy was exposed to the elements and I was worried about insects, mostly mosquitoes, certainly didn’t want to be scratching that region all weekend. He sat me on a wooden bench after laying a blanket on it for my comfort, tying my feet together, although he left my arms and hands free just on the chance i needed my sweater.


After a bit of fishing, Sir found a switch, picked me up and bent me over the bench and we had an intense spanking session alternating his hand and the switch. My sitting would be more of an issue than any damn mosquito bite!  He untied my feet and helped me up to go inside, he washed up and spread me on the bed cuffing me to the bedposts, blindfolded me, asking if I was ok, I was sore but ok. He brushed my hair off my face with his hands, wiped my mascara off my cheeks, kissed my lips and then I heard him leave. After awhile he returned and the familiar sound of a vibrator hummed through the air before he held it to my clit while shoving a rather large glass dildo up my pussy. I orgasmed immediately and he continued till I was crying and begging him to please stop. He uncuffed me, flipped me over with the dildo still in my pussy, lubed my ass, and in he went. He thrust rather quickly spurting his second load of the day in my asshole.

Afterwards I lay in his arms, and we fell asleep for a short nap. This day was only half over.